But that's not why I'm writing today - I'm writing because I woke up this morning and wrote this.... and wanted to share it with all of you!
It's funny the dates we remember and how they affect our lives....
Skateland in Estherville was my second home ... so when mom told me I "shouldn't" go one night, that was weird... she just didn't think I should go. But I did. (I was a teenager). It wasn't that I couldn't... it was that I shouldn't.... (she had my best interest in mind... and well, I'm pretty sure mom was tight with the Holy Spirit!)
May 18th, 24 years ago... I fell and shattered my left wrist at the skating rink. Well... mom was right. I'll never say she wasn't. ;)
There happened to be a nurse there to look it over. One of the staff offered to take me to the ER. I ended out at 3 hospitals that night with my dad - Estherville, Spirit Lake and Spencer.
Dr Wilkerson did surgery on my wrist the next day. I was told how it could heal.... and I told the Dr what I wanted to be when I grew up but that excuse me that's just not going to work out for me.... soooo I would sit in the typing classroom, and I would type away and cry because I WAS GOING to strengthen that wrist.
I was thinking of that today when I woke up and realized the date.... why haven't I taken that same urgency with my back... most of my friends all know just how bad that is and the situation with my back currently...
A pastor shared this story once in church that never left me... about a man sick with cancer who lived in the mountains alone. God visited this man and told him to "PUSH THAT ROCK" the big boulder outside in front of his home. THAT was what God wanted him to do... so as asked, he went outside without question everyday and would push on that rock. He'd stop long enough for meals and then go again till the sun went down.
A year went by and finally he asked God what the point of all that was -- the rock hasn't moved and he's just done !!!! He fell down on the ground in front of the rock and sat there.
God told him... "I never told you to move the rock, I said to push on it." He then explained how the man hadn't bothered to notice that in the year his health had completely improved, his cancer was GONE, he was toned, tan, and healthy now... it wasn't about that rock.
I share that story often because it was a big impact on me....
when I shattered my wrist - typing was my rock... I wanted my wrist HEALED.
(nevermind the fact, the next January I broke the right wrist.... yea yea yea) ;) ... also... at the skating rink.
Today - this date just reminded me I needed to use the same urgency I used on my wrist(s) as I do with my back (and other areas in my life).
I guess I felt like sharing this on here today because I figured I can't possibly, be the only one going through SOMETHING similar.
I have been dealing with anxiety over a few areas in my life lately which is SOOO not me. I know God has a calling on my life, I'm just not being very patient about it because I don't see it in the natural.
But God has promised me and confirmed to me SOOO MANY TIMES that it is coming and to hang in there.
I need to be focused on being ready.
Do we have that urgency in our lives?.... To do whatever it is that God has called us to do by any means necessary.... even if it seems so very menial at the time. Focus on scripture that reminds you of the promise that God gave YOU and hang on to it.... keep a tight grip, Satan is gonna try and steal, kill and destroy - and boy has he been trying with me lately!!
I was reminded again this week... if I'm not where I thought I'd be ...where God has called me and the doors haven't been opened yet - to just keep praising Him in the hallway. ♥ Join me in the hallway!! ♥
EDIT: 5/30/13 - well.... back to the hallway.... (drawing board)? Last week I was told that no infact I won't be able to take my CPE .... Seriously having a tough time with that... but a friend told me that God maybe was keeping me safe or held back for a reason. I'll hang on to that I suppose. God has His reasons for everything.